Over the last 6 weeks or so I have come to a deep understanding of what homesickness feels like and to a small extent what depression brought on by loneliness and change feels like.
We moved to Montana knowing that it was the right thing to do and I still know that it was and is.
But that doesn't lesson the homesickness or the longing to sit in a rocking chair with my grandbabies and rock them and talk to them and play with them and watch them grow like I did when we were in Idaho close to them. Or the longing to sit and talk with our children and our parents in person. And it doesn't lessen the loneliness that I sometimes feel.
But that knowledge, of knowing that we are where we need to be, keeps me going every day and helps me find joy in Montana and the experiences that are here for us and appreciating new wonderful friends!
I ha
ve been reading this book lately. Actually it is one of those books that you read slowly and let it become a part of your life. In the book, Carolyn Rasmus takes each letter from the word SIMPLIFY and uses it to "represent a principle that can help us begin to think about positive changes in our lives and then to make those changes". I have pondered lately the "S" which she says represents stillness. She said there are times when each of us seeks for peace and quiet - for stillness. She wonders if we couldn't "carve out just a little time each day to experience time to be quiet". The place matters little. "The place is not as important" she says, "as the quiet you will find - quiet time to be still, to think, to breathe deeply, and to feel His peace."

So the past couple of weeks I have tried to implement into my day, time for stillness. Like this morning - I woke up a little on the grouchy side. I realized within an hour or so that I needed to have some quiet time and so I went to my place and had that quiet time. It is truly a blessing what happens to me when I do that - when I spend time reading my scriptures, thinking, pondering, breathing deeping and trying to feel His peace. Answers to questions come. The loneliness leaves for awhile and gratitude fills my heart. Peace comes. Tender mercies are so real!
Another thought from the book ~ "President Gordon B. Hinckley: "We need to build ourselves spiritually. We live in a world of rush and go, of running here and there and in every direction. We are very busy people. We have so much to do. We need to get off by ourselves once in awhile and think of the spiritual things and build ourselves spiritually. If you have a study at home, lock yourself in it. If you have a place in the basement where you can be by yourself, go there. Get by yourself and think of things of the Lord. ...Just meditate and reflect...about yourself and your relationship to your Heavenly Father and your Redeemer. It will do something for you."
And then ~ President David O. McKay: "Meditation is the language of the soul...Meditation is one of the most secret, most sacred doors through which we pass into the presence of the Lord...To have communications with God, through his Holy Spirit, is one of the noblest aspirations of life."
I'm so grateful that others can write books and things that speak to my heart and give comfort and peace. My life truly is grand!!!!
Have a happy day!
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Christy said...
Sounds like a wonderful book - I think I could certainly use any advice on Simplifying :) You are so wonderful! (even if you live in Montana...ha ha j/k) I guess I can't say much, I am in Utah and miss Idaho EVERYDAY :)
February 11, 2008 at 10:41 AM